Today I treated myself to some foods I wouldn't usually go for - chocolate frosting, kalamata olives, and almond milk cheese. Looking forward to savoring some treats that don't usually make it into my basket.
I bought myself some flowers. I love having them in the house. They remind me to slow down and be kind to myself.
Today's desire was to sign up for an ecstatic dance class on Sunday. In today's video, I share some pretty agonizing realizations I've been integrating over the last few days around being a people pleasing guilt-aholic. I tell you, the force is strong and with this one, but I am committed to finding value in myself as a woman of devoted to listening to her desires and choosing to live more and more from this place.
Today was a hard day that brought me to forgiveness. I felt like I couldn't stand being around another person by the end of the day and was craving time to journal and hibernate. I wrote for pages and stumbled upon forgiveness and ended up writing a couple pages of it. Once again reminded of how wonderful forgiveness work is. I feel lighter. Not great. But definitely like I've had a release.
Today I almost didn't want to post. I'm feeling vulnerable. I tried a cycling class. It was a great way to burn off some excess energy I have been feeling. That's not why I'm feeling vulnerable though. Ugh. I bumped up against having desires for attention and struggling with how to communicate that as well as how to be okay with however it was received. This challenge is pushing me today in uncomfortable ways. It's pushing me to want to bring things up I might have pushed under the rug in the past. Onward...
Today's desire was to cry. To soften and feel emotion. I've still been playing this weekend with letting the self-help part of me take a break and just to be. Finding that guilt comes up by just being. Allowing myself to explore this part of myself.
Future visioning was where it was at for me today. I found a million ways to distract myself but at the end of the day gave myself this time and it felt wonderful. It was energizing, fueling and gave me a next step that I feel really good about.
Fiction! Today I started reading a fiction book. I let the self-help junkie part of me take a break and sat down with a book, purely for pleasure. Sooo good to not care for an evening about doing the right thing or trying to be better.
Today was the creation of Pookie & Bunny's Jar of Fun. My wonderful friend recommended it as a way to stock up activities my boyfriend and I want to enjoy together. The idea is that we both put a bunch of activities in and on days we get to spend together, we randomly pick one to do that day. Fun and spontaneity! Yay. Excited to pick one.
Leaving love notes on cars was my desire for today. I was feeling a little run down and in a spot of overthinking, so I decided to have some fun putting attention on something outside of myself. I have so much fun writing the notes and then having the thrill of knowing someone will find it, get some love and have no idea where it came from. Fills me with the giggles and happiness.